i have a mind that races a mile a minute. i am a what if thinker, constant ideas of terminal illness and worst case scenario race through this brain that i have. it's hard for me to be optimistic no matter how much effort i put into it. i always measure the pro's and con's of every situation, and most the time i always end up getting into trouble no matter what. lately i've lost care for most things. i don't see the point investing your whole heart when you are unsure of what you're going to get in return. i have seen so much during my short sixteen years of existence than most people twice my age would ever even dream about seeing on a television set. i realize that i need help. but it does no good asking anyone for help. you can only trust yourself. i'm a contradictory soul, and i am fluent in the native tongue called sarcasm. learn it, and love it. i can't say that i have faith in anything superior. like i said, there's no point into putting your whole heart into something that isnt there. if i can't see it, feel it, or experience it; i will not believe. i live life in a sense as i take it as it comes. I am a vegetarian . i love simplistic things like beautiful scenery or the wonders of the earth. i have a lot of potential as a person. i could go very far with my life. i have many fears that i need to face and deal with before i can get to that point. i want to find love, and i want to find it so bad that when it hits me, it hits me so hard that i can bearly get back up. but i won't wait for it. the world moves too fast for us. it's hard to breathe sometimes. i am a problematic person to say the least. i'm troubled, i'm sarcastic, i'm overbearing, i'm jealous, i'm anxious, i'm everything you probably don't want to get yourself involved with. i have high hopes that will change. but, i will say this. i am a strong believer in the fact that everything happens for a reason. i know that there's something i need to do. so until then. i am walking around on gods green earth, and i will not sit down until my purpose is served. the invitation i give you to stop and say hello starts right now.