Dear threadless people.
Especially those of the kitteh house, the most awesome house.
I am too lazy to look up the right thread...because right now I am too lazy for everything..
I have suffered from PTSD the last years due to well uh... a stranger forcing himzslf into my house with sexual intentions. All went well, but now I suffer from a depression due to those 3 years of being and being treated like a second class citizen by the government ánd 'friends'.
I started an education, I am many years older then my fellow students due to that PTSD that kept me from being in society for years. It's hard. I started a year of internship now, and it is too hard. It's hard to acknowledge that you.... just can't do it. Internship goed ok. my home is a pigstall. I stank like bum, I rarely eat, I haven't seen friends or family since 3 months.. because those 32 hours of internship are too much to take... I'm not ready..
I also haven't spend time on my hobby's. Like drawing.
I feel really guilty because I just got accepted in the KITTEH house... and now I fail.
I want to apoligize. I am working hard, daily, litteraly every hour is a struggle too NOT listen to that 'life is useless, you are better of dead' feeling. I talk to a lot of people. I am on medication. It just doens't change over night. But I will battle it. Luckely my 'commen sence' and 'feelings' are clearly apart.
I hope you understand.
And what is this 'cowcow' who wants to buy my designs and contact me through facebook?
p.s. Cats are awesome.