i have ideas but then again seem unmotivated to see them through. i must get my clothing line finally up and running as soon as possible to pay the bills. i need to set up and go through with the photo shoots as well in order to feel complete. I see the long list of both sections that i have to do and then top it with the issues for my son and my fiance and i feel that i losed my sanity.

Where did it go? and how in the hell do i get to be fully normal again if that is even possible. My mind is brillant but lately i have been using it more for evil then good. Im the person you never be known to give a damn but now a days i dont want the karma to come back at me three folds or more.

i have ideas... im my skull for everything.. i just need someone to be kicking my ass to get them out.