this shirt reminds me terribly of my friend.
&& i have to say, it is by FARRR my fav joke everrr.
&& i think i'm going to buy it for his bday.
or christmas. or halloween. or something.
and LAUGH everytime he wears it. :)
just so you know...

my friend first described THIS VERY shirt to me.
&& that is why i first googled "threadless.com".
&& i'm glad he did tell me about it.

this is an ending. a beginning.
the eye of the storm.
it's the question and the answer.
this is the mystery and the science, the final explanation.
it's the gunshot and the finish line.
it's the opening act and the encore and the intermission.

i don't understand any of it.
and everyone else does.
it's the glass case of emotion.
it's the heartache and the earthquake.
i think until i can't anymore, then everything's spinning.
and i'm gone out of this world.
i'm happy and thoughtless.
no opinion, no ideas, no decision.
the eye of the storm.
everything is too insane around me,
i can't let go and step one inch out of my way.
or it will take me away;
the tears, the laughter, the anger, the love.

this is the love.
the first thing.
the real thing.
but i can never be sure.
i've never felt the real thing.
and if i have, it was never like this.
all these ropes and weights tied to his soul.
something he can't free from his mind.
when all i want to do is hold on, he needs to let go.

but i don't know what i want.
i want risk and fear and life.
i want to feel and love and live and cry and scream and laugh.
i want to let go.
i want to hold on.
i want this to be over, before it begins.
i want everything to be so much more simple.

becuase what if i'm wrong?
what if i don't need this?
what if i'm just fearing nothing but fear itself...
like i need something to fear so i invent my own.
what if i'm imagining this entire situation,
that's why i've never felt this way before.
that's why i can't understand it.
because it's not real.
what if i can't becuase it is.
and i've been imagining everything else?
to make me my own person?

i just want someone to tell me something different.
it's too hard.
it's the truth, the task, the question.
it's the answer the deceit and the cheat.

summer is the one greatest thing that people left us kids to enjoy.
they took away all our fun, with their rules and their regulations and their expectations.
but if i ever have to look back and think "what would i never give up?"
the answer would be EASY PEASY: my summertime.
it's really unrealistic i guess, having this HUGE uncontrolled and completely free break from the real world, where we can jsut fool around and do absolutely nothing and stay out late and get drunk off our asses and sleep til 2 in the afternoon and eat whatever we want whenever we want. and i never really understood WHY they want us to have all this spare time to "disrupt the peace" and such, but we have it.
AND I'M SO HAPPY :)
and obviously it's natural to be sad when something you love dearly is gone. i mean, i'l get more of it in about a year. and there will always be weekends... the weekly bite of summer. abd the memories will last long enough to make me smile. but i'll miss this one like no other.
AND i'll def miss those who i met who are parting ways and going to university somewhere far-offish and those who are going to europe and never coming back and those who are just dissapearing off the face of the earth.
I'LL MISS YOU ALL UNBELIEVABLY :)
but i'm just glad they made my summer.
made. that's what it was.

well i have to go now :) and enjoy the very last (lucky) LONG WEEKEND of my summer. pfft.
one weekend.

just two regrets too: i didn't take enough pcitures & i didnt spend enough time on the roof.

alot of things change when you look away.
and alot of things that people tell you, are really really true.

1. vegetables are good for you.
2. look both ways before crossing the street.
3. don't let boys make you cry.
4. girls don't make any sense.
5. mom is always right.
6. honesty IS the best policy.
7. people like to learn the hard way.
8. cheaters never win.
9. you can't know how much you love a thing til its gone.
10. take chances.
11. follow your heart.
12. trust your instincts.
13. never give up, never surrender.
14. life is unfair.
15. either accept it, or change it.
16. there's no such thing as mistakes.
17. take a tonne of pictures.
18. keep in touch.
19. there is always at least ONE person who loves you.
20. dream big.
21. make what you can of any situation.
22. if you have nothing nice to say, say nothing at all.
23. look before you leap.
24. care about your neighbours as you would yourself.
25. thou shall not kill.
26. use your words.
27. absense makes the heart grow fonder.
28. r-e-s-p-e-c-t.
29. smoking doesn't make you look cool.
30. smile.
31. if you don't succeed, try again.
32. laugh at your embarassment.
33. time heals all wounds.
34. nothing is impossible.
35. too much of a good thing is bad for you.

this list SHALL BE CONTINUED.