I graduated with my Bachelor of Science in Graphic Design just this March. A few months before then, I began interning at what has since become my full time job. Ever since I first stepped foot in here, I feel like my creativity left me. I work in one of what is probably the most liberal corporate buildings a designer could hope for in a nationally recognized company who's goal is making life fun. The thing is, no matter how "liberal" any corporate company may appear to an outsider, you have no idea how restrictive it can be from within! I'm sure that many people who work at more rigid companies would scoff at me and tell me to stop my complaining because I have it easy - but I think that my mind just doesn't work so well in a box, no matter how big that box may be. I've been on a creative dry spell for the past 11 months and I can't seem to get out of it. The good ideas I've had are few and far between, and when I do get a great idea for a personal project I want to work on, I begin and then drift off somewhere because I'm just too tired to finish it. You should see what I see in my head when I remember my original idea for the Threadless Loves Travel contest! I see it so clearly and I feel like it's one of the best designs my mind has ever conjured up... unfortunately, I couldn't find the time or energy to complete it and did what I believe to be a half-assed job.

Unfortunately, a girl's gotta eat and pay off student loans so that requires keeping the job. In these times of economic hardship, I am no exception as I'm starting at the bottom of the rung when it comes to pay - however I'm just waiting it out for my pay to rise because with all of these companies tanking, I lucked out in getting a job with one of the few who is making plan. So I dare not rock the boat by quitting and looking for a job elsewhere - besides, if I were to find a job elsewhere, wouldn't I just have the same problem? The problem isn't necessarily the job, but the career. I suggest to anyone who loves something never to exploit it for purpose of a career, it can take the love out of it.