a loooonnng time ago i made a drawing based on the poem 'footprints in the sand'...anyone heard of it? anyway. my drawing was titled 'drag-prints in the sand' for the time when, as i illustrated, some lady was more like being dragged along by her higher power, no longer being carried. as time passed the drawing changed to show a wider view of the beach and depict that she had been choosing not to participate for quite some time.

and NOW the picture has changed even MORE lol. the girl in the picture somehow stopped altogether to dig a giant hole in the sand! it really can be a fun thing to do! lots of people stopped along the way to watch and some said things...some paused on their own journeys to help her dig her hole...others stopped to laugh and kick sand at her head from above while making her think they were trying to help her out...the whole time god sat and watched as she struck water and kept digging until eventually she dug a hole so deep the water was above her head! she flailed around a while claiming she couldn't swim, but the lord knew she could, and knew she could climb out eventually, so he sat and waited until she did.

AND for my second reference, one of my FAVORITE books, the awakening, and the final scene, which seems to fit right into the story: she's out of her hole and wanting to walk again! but instead of along the beach she walks toward the water. god still sits there shaking his head; he knows that's still not the right way. she swims out into the ocean and does more to draw attention, thinking someone will think she's drowning, but god is the only one really invested, and he knows the plan anyway. but WHAT is the plan?! he is the only one who knows what he's given her - how much swimming power and how much willpower to walk on that damn beach anyway. and when it's all said and done - whether she continues swimming further out until she can't anymore, or uses up all her energy flailing in the sea and then drags herself back to dry land and back to her quest along the shore for another mile, five miles, however far - when it's all said and done they will say it was all for a reason even if no one knows what that reason is. and even though it is not really for a reason lol. oh my bad no. it's the same reason the sky is blue.

the end
and FYI in the next part, the chick rises up in a whirlpool like ursula from the little mermaid to destroy all the whorish women on earth, and even though she gets killed, she is reborn as a phoenix - not the lame jean kind of "phoenix" in whatever xmen movie where she doesn't even come back as a phoenix, leaving me never to watch another xmen movie again ugh - a REAL phoenix like in heroes 2 where she can destroy multiple hexagons at once and so proceeds to kill all the dishonest men with her fiery breath.

thanks for reading lol not a cry for help more like a testament that anyone can overcome anything.