yea i didnt go to work today because i wanted to sleep in.



i called them last night and said i was dehydrated.

but at least you're giggling!





I woke up at eight this morning for no particular reason. I do have homework to do though.

i woke up like a half hour ago. my dad was nice and he left the stupid bird covered up so it wouldnt wake up and squawk at 8 am.

I hit the snooze button like 3 times this morning.

My younger bro sleeps through his alarm clock... his alarm usually wakes me up, and I have to go to his room and turn it off, and slap him in the face while I'm at it.

wow, you're a light sleeper

Walk it off.

I wish I could even sleep until my alarm. I set it every night just in case, but I don't know what it sounds like when it activates because I've never been able to stay asleep that late

that sucks. what time do you get up in the morning?

I'm supposed to get up at 6. Usually I am up by 5:45, though. That's just weekdays. Weekends I don't use an alarm but am usually up by 7.

hay i know this has nothing to do with the blog but I love u and im here no matter what happens. If we have to wait four months i will still be here waiting for you. I hope u are doing ok i know it is hard but your parents realy do love you, granted they have a strange way of showing it but in there mind they are doing what they think is right. I know your mom thinks that i am trying to under mine her but that is not what i am trying to do i just want the best for you. I hope when you move out that those deep wounds will heal and you and your mom will have a good relationship. I know right now that is not what you want to here but it is true you need to make amendes with your mom, she loves you. She just dosn't know how to deal with u or what to do, seems to me she thinks that just shuting every thing down will help. This will not help and she will soon realise that i just hope its not to late. I love you so much. I want to talk to your parents and find out what happend, why they hate me so much. I am not angry at them any more, I relised they are just doing what they think is the best and i have to respect them for that. I am deaply hurt by them tho and i need to talk to them not only for our sake but for theres to. I think that alot of what they are going off of are misconceved assumptions, I just want to set the record strait and make sure we are on the same page. I think that God will eathere soften there hearts or give us the strength to persiver through this hard time. Try to make amends with your mom, I know it will be hard for you but it is something that needs to be done for your spirit to heal, I see in your eyes that you want to be free and that you have so much love that you want to give but its all bottled up with the hate and resentment that you have. The hate needs to be delt with baby i know its hard trust me i hade to purge it out of my herat to and it hurts. Once the hate, the blackness of your soul is gone it will leave love and purr light that will make you feal so warm inside( it might fix you always being cold hehe). I know that you have love and fath in your heart but all the hate and anger is keeping it in, LET IT OUT. Your mom belive it or not is haveing just as much trouble as you and i relise she is taking out on you, i know thats not right and its hard but she is hurting to, you can see it in her eyes you can see the wall of pain and hurt. I just want to tell you i love you and i will try to make things as easy for you as possible, I dont know how yet but i will think of something.



I will always love you no matter what!!!

Luke

wow that was long

i c.

ah young love







you'll see, you'll see..

hey milkman!