:( i'm sorry about your grandmother. That's tough.

my grandma's been on the ropes for like two years. good luck with that.

sucks about the job too man, i've been there. and i got passed up a few times....stay at it. it'll happen.

Sorry to hear that. I hope you'll find confort in the fact that everything happens for a reason and maybe you'll find an even better opportunity. Good luck!

comfort, even

oh man i went through the same exact thing a year ago. my grandfather was dying (and died) and i was trying to get a good job (got turned down a LOT) .. so i can empathize for sure. i'm sorry you're having a really bad day. just know that it'll get better. or worse, then better..

that's not what you want to hear. but trust me. it'll get better soon.

i just feel like i have too much responsibility sometimes and there's no way I'm going to pull anything off. I got out of the military a few months ago and realized at some point that I barely have any marketable skills and no education and I have two people that need me to take care of them and I feel...i don't even know how I feel. This job seemed like a sure thing and it was going to help me into a position were it would feel like I was living a normal life. I feel like I'm on track to be one of those hairy, smelly veterans on the street corner yelling at cars...

i feel like my life is turning into an outtake from Bruce Springsteen's "Nebraska" sessions

if that happens, be the best "hairy, smelly verteran on the street corner yelling at cars" you can be.
i wouldn't think that type of existence would be so bad; batshit mad and 100% obvlious. seriously. the conscious are the damned. the compassionate; the stricken. your responsibilities are treasures.

shirtflirt, thanks for that, in my emotional ravaged state your simple words almost brought me to tears.

my words are simple, in deed :)

Best of luck to you. Life is tough... I hope things are resolved soon.

I never know what to say at times like this...

stuff gets resolved and new stuff just happens, i just wish I knew what I'm gonna do for work. I can't support a family working in a Hollywood Video for the rest of my life.

I could become a cop I guess, I could probably get a job being a cop pretty easy...but I really don't want to be a fucking cop.

and sure, I have the G.I. bill...i can go to school, which is nice, but it'll take four years to get a bachelors in something...and...assuming that said degree is worth anything, i STILL have to try and find a job that works with said degree...I mean...Jesus...I don't have the luxury of time like that.

don't do something you'll hate. the struggle now may suck, but wait and pursue you want to do. it will make all the difference later on.

i have no ideal what I want to do, I just want to SURVIVE

what I wanted to do was to be a 9-1-1 operator, but obviously that's not going to happen anymore...

I'm sorry to hear all this... I really hope that things will get better soon. Hang in there :/

surviving is ok but not if you have responsibilities in the world. i could lend you some decent taoist stuff that would help ya out but it's tough, and i know you'll figure it out.

thanks for the confidence, and as for the taoist stuff...sure...why the hell not.

i mean, i'm so upset...i got a delivery of shirts from Threadless RIGHT before I got my rejection letter from the 9-1-1 people...and I haven't even opened my Threadless package yet. :-)

lostyank at hotmail dot com

send me your addy and i'll send ya some stuffs

Sorry for your troubles. You just have to think that you didn't get that job for a reason. That's how I try to look at it. I hope there is a something great around the corner.

maybe i'll just go become a hitman, like John Cusack in Grosse Point Blank or something. and thanks shirtflirt, I think i'll do that.

that would be a sweet profession

"No meetings! I hate meetings!"

Wow man that is some instense stuff,

Last thing you probably want to hear at this point: )but I am
going to say it anyways)

God is there for you, give it up to him and watch what happens.
^_^ You have my prayers,
God bless!

-TTTG

interesting that a person called "talking to the ground" would preach about god.

hmmmmm.

that's nice of you, thanks Talking To The Ground.