Lordy lord, help me, i have no life and nada nothing--and yet i have so much going on. I think it's that i have no time to myself, and when i do, i don't know what to do with it. So here it is, how i will spend my time. Typing useless grievences onto a website for other people to see. Yes. But then again it is something to do so i can't put it down. well thats all for now, thank you for enjoying this really stupid shit, and enjoy life no matter what--even when you think it doesn't exist. Hey who knows might grow up to be a collummist in a big News paper, and writing these dumb blogs helped me to get really good at it.

So i am dating this new guy. I just gave up on every other stupid flirt i tried to make work this year, and I'm glad i did because i really like this guy and he likes me alot too. Or at least thats what he says.

We've only been datng for 2 1/2 weeks, and he just got grounded for more three if he's really good, and more if he's just normal good. This includes his car being taken away, no phone, no computer, no TV, no class ring (which i thought was weird), and especially no contact with me under any circumstances for the entire time. So he can no longer go to my prom, no phone calls ever, nothing for maybe a month.

i don't really know how to deal. But i don't want to just give up on this kid. he has said to me on way too many occasions how much he likes me, and he manages to sweep me off my feet every time i see him. So do i sneak to his work and surprise him, or is he just trying to put space between us to break up--but if not should i just stick it out? It's just going to be hard because it's like a big pause in the relationship. I don't know WHAT TO DO!

please help. all comments mean or nice are welcome.

So I'm on Springbreak, except I'm here with my Grandparents. Now don't get me wrong, they have more energy than i do, and we get into Disney world FREE because they know people who work there. It's so much fun! But you don't stop with these people. I get sick because I'm exhausted from everything we have to do with them. I was so car sick on the way back s i took a dramamine and started to fall asleep, but every five friggin seconds my Nonna was tapping me on the shoulder asking "are you okay?" AAAAHHHHHH!!!

So are there any suggestions on how to cope with the exhaustion???

So life has been pleasant!
I think I'm going to ask wood chopping boy to my prom. (See previous blogs--he said we should just be friends).
But I'm going to ask him to go as friends. I do need a date. I feel like such a loser...no one has asked me yet. But i have back up--theres the best friend, and the infatuated artist who's all over me. But I'd rather have him become a last resort bacause i'm not in the mood to give him the wrong idea.

So heres the question i pose--should i ask wood chopping boy? We actually hang like friends, and i think--or at least hope--that he's been kicking himself over the "just friends" thing. Do you think it'd be weird? I mean we dated once. But that didn't turn out so well. I still like the kid. And his other best friend is going with one of my best friends. I could try using it as a bribe?

Well any thoughts? He might say no anyway and it won't matter.

So the kid who chopped wood dumped me. I'm really depressed about it...well not that depressed. Just mildly bummed. Give me Less than a day, one chocolate bar, and a mushy romance on TBS and life will be good. I can't let this cause me to falter. I sing in a choir and i really want a solo and my last boyfriend deterred me from getting two other solos. So I will Stay strong!

But what should i do now?

So i asked out a guy i've liked for awhile on Monday, and he said yes. I was so excited! So today we went on our first lunch date thing...it started out fun. We chatted. He was totally taken by surprise when i asked him, and he asked why? Yada yada.

So i was finishing my french fries--oh by the way, he brought his own food--yeah i made the same face...so he took out some homework and was like "i need to work on this a bit. Do you mind?" I just stared. He said he's not a talker. 3 hour conversations just aren't his thing.

A friend of mine came over to sit with us and i chatted with him for about 20 mins before i finally said--"you're boring." I kicked him alittle under the table. My friend said he had to go. So on our first date we sort of had a fight. I could see him 40 years from now with his wife sitting at the dinner table doing work, going uh huh, yes dear..."hunny do i look fat?" "absolutely." I get a kick out of it though.

But i feel like he's completely uninterested. Which i have to say is interesting...i said before he left "I'm surprised you haven't asked for my number yet." Hs response: "I don't really need it." The kid is ignorant when it comes to relationships, but i don't think he realizes it. So i don't know if he's interested, and just an idiot, whether he's playing hard to get to keep me interested, or if he really just doesn't care. What can i do? I'm baffled by this kid--i'm insulted! But I can't help but like him.

PS: He's really proper, no gangster or anything like that, and never verbally rude...but he was rude...i just don't think he realizes he is.

Dude i actually got a job! And i needed one! I work in a bridal boutique which is wicked awesome since i'm going into fashion design! Cool right? So yeah thats about it. Life is good--no great! Oh and the coffee house i put on at my high school for our radio station went fantastically! We made so much money! It felt good. Ok now i'm done. Bye! Yeah!

Yo what is the deal with parents? Most would want you to live at home for college. They don't want to "lose their baby". But nope, not my mom...she's been trying to kick me out for over a year. I mean i'm not happy being here, but i can't afford to go anywhere else, unless i move in with my dad, but he's no where near my mom's...so that'd mean changing school my senior year. I don't want to go somewhere else for graduation. I'm going to stick it out, but any advice on the topic would be great. 6 months left to deal...ahhh!!! At least when it is over i'm gone, and i will be living with my dad.

darth vador is my hero...he overcame his asthma problems.

i got into college! But it's weird...i was uninspired when putting my portfolio together, but now that i have so much free time, and the weight of it has been lifted off my shoulders, i'm just crankin em out. And their good! WHat was wrong before?