Life is kind of kicking my ass right now. I'm writing this, but I don't know if I'll post it. If I post it, I will probably delete it. But, yeah.

It's been a really shitty, awful year. And to be honest its getting worse, not better, despite trying to keep a Pollyanna outlook.

I was head over heels in total love with a guy, and in all honesty really thought he was The One. So happy. So in love. And he decided he didn't love me after all, and that he is leaving not only me, but the country as well.

And now he's with someone else. And was more than likely cheating on me with her whilst we were together.

My grandfather passed away, and not being able to say goodbye, or be there with my family in New Zealand broke my heart.

Work is awful. I can't go into why, but it's taking all my willpower to not just up and leave.

My grandmother had a heart attack this morning. I've been spending all day by the phone waiting to hear more, and see if she is OK, but I won't know for a good few hours yet. Again being so far away from home and my family is really difficult.

If you guys have any words of advice, or pictures of puppies, it would be really awesome. Getting tired of trying to keep my head above water.

Sorry for the woe-is-me post. Sometimes you just have to talk.