so for those of you who don't know (which is apparently nearly all of you), i've had a weird red bump on my eye for the last 2-ish months. it started off small, and i assumed it was just a discoloration due to allergies or irritation, and i kind of just forgot about it.

after a week or two, i noticed that it hadn't gone away yet, and that it looked like a raised bump rather than just a discoloration. i didn't think much of it, though, because it didn't hurt or itch or seem to produce any side effects whatsoever. because of that, i never really was aware it was there other than when i looked closely in the mirror.

it never went away. worse, it got bigger. it wasn't some kind of drastic overnight size increase or anything, so it was hard to really notice it was getting bigger at first. but it was right on the edge of my cornea (the clear part that is in front of your iris/pupil), and that seemed a little scary.

i've been RIDICULOUSLY busy this quarter with grad school, and because it never seemed to be causing any real problems other than looking weird, i didn't go out of my way to fit in a doctor's appointment.

i finally went to the doctor today. i was really, really hoping they'd just say "here, these eye drops will clear it right up!" and send me on my merry way. guess not.

I GET TO HAVE EYE SURGERY!! YAAAAY!!

holy fuck. eye. surgery.

yeah, apparently it's officially a "growth" (as opposed to just a swollen vessel or some kind of allergic reaction), and due to its current size (officially 2.9mm tall by 1.9mm wide) and the rate at which it is growing, it is officially labeled a "medium-to-large, fast-growing" growth. and it is officially encroaching past the edge of my cornea.

they're going to do a biopsy to determine if it's benign or malignant, but either way they're going to have to surgically remove it.

surgically remove something from my fucking eye.

MY EYE.

*heebity jeebities*

:(

here's what it looked like back in january, when it was just over 2mm long. it's now just under 3mm long, meaning it's just under 50% larger now :(