I definitely understand how you feel.

And I'm horrible at comforting people when they feel like the universe is conspiring against them, but just know that you're not alone and eventually it'll all be over and you'll get into that part of life when everything is perfect and boring. So at least you have that to look forward to, yeah?

One of the major issues is just that my roommate/what used to be my best friend is going through a really rough time right now and just like.. sleeps all day and never does any work and never goes to class. And because I have to get good grades, I do go to class and study. This means our friendship isn't working so well, since she just... never spends any time around here and is so fucking DRAMATIC. I hate dramatic people. I hate that she makes a huge fucking deal about everything and is really just making her own life worse and worse, whereas meanwhile I have had a ton of shitty things happen to me over the last year, but since I don't fucking complain and whine and act out about everything, no one fucking cares.



Ugh.



Living with her is really, really stressing me out right now. She keeps going back and forth about whether or not she's coming back, and really, I'll miss her, but I kind of just really wish she'd go.

and thanks :)

I just... hate being around people who are unhappy, unmotivated, and fucking imploding.



I feel like my life for the past six months has been full of unhappy people whose lives are falling apart.



I spent so much of my young life being so depressed, and now that I'm finally happy and content and at peace, everyone else decides to try to drag me back down with them.



Plus I just got shut out of a class I really wanted to take. Haha.

Are you me?

*Twilight Zone music*

Aw, the art history class?

nah, it's a Modern Latin American history class... it shouldn't have been hard to get into, I just have the worst scheduling time out of everyone in the entire college. For reals.



I'm hoping I can get in anyway; I just really want to take it because I'm going to Chile next year and think it would be awesome to have that knowledge.

Hey, my best friend from home went to Chile for 6 months for her program. Do you know where you are going? Maybe she can hook you up with sweet places to go!

oooh, that would be awesome! I'm about 90% sure I'm going to Santiago and taking classes at the big university there. Valparaíso is the other option if I change my mind.

Awww, I'm so sorry Margo. :(

I'm even sorrier I can't offer you any more than e-consolation. I know what end of semester stress is like, and it sucks that you have to deal with more shit on top of it. Just try and survive though until winter break. We're all rooting for you here! :)

You should be cheered up by making Modcloth wishlists if you were a true twin.





And I KNOW you love Modcloth.

hahaha, actually, that's true. I soothe myself by looking at clothes online and ffffound and flickr :/



And that's a good point, haha. I actually got a jacket from there today that is super warm and that is at least one good thing.

It's flighty and materialistic and whatnot, but when I'm upset I pretend I have a lot of money to spend on clothes and then make lots of wishlists of things I never end up buying.

Unless I DO get some money, and then buy one or two. It's always so hard to choose in the end, though..

hahahaha yes. That's what I do, too :/ It is, however, RIDICULOUSLY fun.

:(



that sucks. and I know what you mean. Hope your gloomy people brighten up soon, or you find a way to go on without them.

This is a quote from Emily:



"I lived in Santiago (capital) for most of the time, but I spent a week in the Atacama Desert (northern region) and a week in the northern part of Patagonia (southern region), and we took weekend trips to Isla Negra, Vina del Mar & Valparaiso. Where's that friend o' yourn going?"

I was that gloomy person once

:(



it's no fun from the other side either.

this too shall pass

I've been the gloomy person, too, Steve... I don't know, my roommate just kind of continually makes me feel worse about myself, and I feel like she's kind of emotionally using me.



And yeah, Dan, it will :/



Amalia - ooh! Awesome. I think I'll be doing a lot of that, too. Maybe not the Atacama, but I'm pretty sure we're going to Isla Negra and I know I'll be going to Valpo/Viña at least a few times.

Hey, is this the place you will go to: Universidad Catolica?



She said to connect youse guyes, so here is her facebook in case when you get there you want to know anything :)

yes! Universidad Catolica! And I will add her :) Thank you so much.

it's time for me to help you.

it doesn't get better when you get older

hahahahaha Dom. I appreciate the honesty.



Anyway, I cried about it so I feel better now. It still sucks but I don't feel like I'm drowning in it.



And Omair, that sounds so ominous. But also like we might be going on a quest!

so... thanks again, everyone, for letting me throw a pity party on the blogs. You made me feel a lot better, and I worked out and I feel awesome.



I miss you guys!

my last two semesters in college I was on the brink of failing out unless i got 3 b's and 2 a's...I had a nervous breakdown once a week, and I'm almost positive even though I'm self diagnosing that I had about 7 anxiety attacks within those 8 or so months.

yeah, that would kill me, haha.



That's kind of what my roommate is going through, but it's something her parents set for her and they have a record of not sticking to that stuff (they keep changing it).



I don't know if she's really even trying anymore, though. It seems like she's just kind of paralyzed by it and self-destructing.

I was in college for an undergraduate degree (management info systems) at osu for SIX years. the first 4.5 years I jacked around and coasted through, but apparently I didn't coast very well. By the last two semesters I was effed in the a because of my complacency about school. Once I realized that I was going to be kicked out without being able to come back and finish my degree from my alma mater I got my ass in gear. I didn't have a life except college because I didn't want to do anything to compromise my grades. It was living hell, but I created it for myself so I didn't really complain. I didn't have a choice. Either go to every class and study my ass off, or fail out of school and work at mcdonalds.

everyday I woke up feeling like I was coming unglued and went to bed with the same feeling. It never ebbed.

awwww, that sounds awful. I've been there with that level of anxiety, but not about school. Glad it's over for both of us. And wait, where did you go? Which OSU?

oklahoma state

ahhhh, okay. There are a few, and I grew up near Ohio State, so I thought I'd ask.



Sigh. Oh stress.



I don't ever really need to stress as much as I do, because I just need to maintain a 3.3 to keep my scholarship, but still... I mean, the fact that I would have to leave if I fucked up is enough to motivate me.

I don't know what I meant there, but I'd like to make things better.

aren't you magic, anyway?