A Deep Conversation
Quite often I have nights like this one. I try to fall asleep, but all of the sudden, I begin to think about friends and family that have passed away. I wonder if in some way they are still around, in a different world/place, or watching over us. The idea of an after-life.
But, then I get around to myself, I start to wonder, what's going to happen to me?! Is there an after-life, or an eternity of just... nothing, what would nothing feel like? I think the fact that we cannot begin to imagine ABSOLUTELY nothing is the reason human beings turn to religion. The idea of there being NOTHING scares us, it scares me. And so I envy people with great faith in their religion. Because of that security they have about what awaits them (or what they believe awaits them, anyway.) But if they believe in it so strongly, then good on them.
Now, I was raised in a very free thinking household, but attended a catholic school till the age of 16. I am grateful for this, because I believe that a good understanding in any religion is a very useful thing.
It was a strict school when it came to catholic values, BUT they were also very modern in the sense that they taught us about many other religions too, in great depth.
So even after being fed all of this, I would always turn to science. It just seemed much more appealing to me, as there aren't any "grey" areas in science. You can't NOT trust science. Because their facts, it's physical, you can observe it. And I like that.
But now, getting back to my original point; according to science, there is such a thing as nothing, and thats what there is after we die. And, me, being a human being can't get my head around that, even though I believe it. I feel almost certain that there is nothing. I don't want to believe this.
I won't turn to religion because I disagree with too many things about many of the religions I have studied.
I guess I'm looking for your points of view. If you're someone like me, who turned your back to religion, what do you believe is in store for us (or not) after we die? What keeps your mind at rest when it comes to this subject?